Not My Will

By Carrie Moyer Nine months ago I sighed realizing that my third trimester would span the hottest months of summer. But I was grateful and excited for the new life given to our family. My appreciation for good air conditioning would increase. Yet the past three months have borne with them a heavy sorrow, more oppressive than summer heat. I would have been pulling out baby clothes, washing them, packing my hospital bag, buying newborn diapers, counting down the days to July 11, but the Lord had other plans. After carrying our precious baby for fourteen weeks, I had to rest in the sovereignty of my Lord. I had to trust anew that His love alone will delight and sustain me. I had to know that His plan is perfect and His purposes good and His judgments right. His Spirit had to nurture in me the resolve to declare, "Though my desires be not fulfilled, Though my dreams be not completed, Though nothing I hoped for came to be, 'yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy...